After he died, I became angry.

My husband was paralyzed five years. I spent those years trying to help him overcome his illness. After the constant challenge of spending every moment of my life helping him move and think . . . after being with him all the time, he died and left me alone. I didn't like being lonely. Who does? Suddenly when I realized he was gone, I was forced to think about something besides what I needed to be doing for my husband.

After he died, I became angry. Why had he not tried harder to get well? Why had he been so inconsiderate to die and leave me to reorganize? Now when I look back on those feelings, I realize how irrational my thought processes were, but they were my thoughts.

The grief was worse at the end of the day. A friend who had lost his wife told me that he learned the value of a long walk at sunset. I started ending my days with a long walk or bicycle ride. Sometimes I prayed, and sometimes I talked with friends and family on my cell phone.

Sundays were the hardest . . . .

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